from p.4 on Mon., 9/25

Run,
Stop,
Cry,
Move on


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I am nothing of a man.
A shell of silence,
and of love.

How am I to be a man,
if all I can think of,
is her?


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Gray floods my room.
Glazing past the glazed
glass,

my mind wanders
as nature's music
fills my ears.


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As I drove by
I remembered
the rose bushes
chocolate cupcakes
a cave of blankets
a ladybug pillow
that I didn't care for.

I thought I had forgotten.

from p.1 on Mon., 9/25

Fall--
Gray skies,
gentle rain,
sweaters & spice tea,
cozy homes
with blankets & books,
Fall--
it's finally here.


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Six Rainbows,
and a sea
of blocks.

Horses all around,
free,
but suddenly

GONE.


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Eyes meet eyes,
my heart starts to flutter
as I wonder

"Does he notice me?"


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My calloused fingers
picket at the strings
smelling like
a rainy swing-set.

I wiped my tears
and played on.

from p.4 on Mon., 9/18

Complete
Pure
Vulnerable
Worship.

My heart was


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I finally had my
first kiss!

But then
i woke up and realized
it was just a dream.

I didn't let out just
a tear, but a stream.


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Breathe desperately,
     So our sleeping limbs may awake
          We may not become ghosts yet,
               but these awful things make me ache for answers.


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We lived in the present,
with the gift of the unknown.

We live in the present,
with the gift of past mistakes.

We will live in the future,
with the gift of present knowledge.


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Walkin' around
lookin' down
by the play ground
look,
there's a clown!

from p.1 on Mon., 9/18

As heavy clouds
swirled above,

below was old
movies and
endless cups of
orange tea. Not
a minute spent
away from the

oh so loving
couch.


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Early morning.
Watery dew on the grass.

The room was cold,
my friends moved
across the floor.

I watched wishing
I was out there.


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A screaming sensation
in the front of
my head.

3 circles of hope
to ease the voices
until my head

hits the pillow
and darkness quiets
the symphony.


-----


The screen stares
back at me--

--I just sent out
my soul!

He now knows
and there's no
response,

but as long as he knows,
I stay content.

from p.4 on Mon., 9/11

I didn't write
a poem.

But

if I did

it would be
ill.


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People keep telling me
how they french kiss girls,
while I just sit
and talk
with the squirrels.


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I was a porcelain doll,
unappreciated,
collecting dust,
only an inch away from falling
and shattering.

But I sit on the top shelf.

I can see everything,
but do they know
I'm here?


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Utter madness:

being stretched into a thin line,
trying to balance between
work,
school,
family,
friends.

from p.1 on Mon., Sept. 11th

The music flooded
though my veins
as flashes of
neon absorbed
my vision.

Sounds of years ago
filled my heart
with content that
the night was all it
should be.


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Teenage love
you know it will break.

But for now we
are spiraling roses
blooming,
expanding,

yet fragile to the touch.


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family friend
spawns into a
new level of
life.
Leaving behind
a sorrowful
lost family
back on level
1.


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We only had a little
time, a little joy,
a little love, but it
was so needed and
in a way it made
my day.

from p.4 on Wed., 9/6

Getting together,
bonding & growing.

Feeling light as a feather
as the night is slowing.


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They told me to look at the sun.

As I watched
the orange dot illuminate
the sky,

I thought

of him

and smiled.

His dimpled smile,
his curly locks, are so much
better than a damn sun.


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We wake up early,
feel the mountain air
on our faces.
But,
really,
no other feeling compares to

just being with you.


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Mountains and hills,
quiet and calm,
continuous and never ending.

from p.1 on Wed., 9/6

The dehydrated,
tired camel wearily
shuffles up the
rocky mountain.

At the top--he
sits, and stares,
and sneezes.


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Looking eye to eye,
smiling,
our cheeks filled with blush,
stomachs filled with butterflies.

She looked so beautiful,
laughing, enjoying life.


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Running around,
restrained,
blind.

My heart knows
who I should be loving
but my lover
I can't find.


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The fire blazes,
washing out the cold,
as our group huddles
around the
campfire.